Nope, I would certainly not want to deal with that side of me either. To say I feel regretful is a massive understatement! Without beating myself up too much, I feel like I deserve this right now (within reason).
What I've done to change that behavior in the past week (so far): connecting with my girlfriends (and their girlfriends!) so I always have things to do. Acceptance. Giving him total space to drink, smoke, withdraw, ignore me, sulk, whatever. Pray. Love him from from a distance and not ask him anything personal, just behave kindly. Not questioning anything I normally would. Joining back up with my spiritual program to plug back into some real 'power' again.
What I've done for him: apologized, tried to make him feel comfortable without having to talk when he does come into the house, saying hello and being pleasant, not icing him out or throwing bad energy at the situation or him, doing the dishes and laundry, hiking w the dogs. (That's kind of for me though). I guess I'm working on being the kind of wife he'd want to be around.
