best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

I don't think that I am at that point that I could say no to reconciliation. Although I think that is exactly where I want to get to. Each day brings me closer to that goal. Each day gets easier and easier with less emotional baggage weighing me down. I feel I am starting to become WAS in that I feel like I am not being heard. In the same time that she needs to work through her issues, I need to get to the point of dropping the rope. It does feel good to have a better understanding of what it will take get there. My biggest fear now is in regards to my children. How will they come out of this? Are they going to hate us for this? Will they struggle in school and their relationships? I do know the more I detach from my w, the better I will be able to deal with those questions?

Wondering since those are my main fears to overcome, and they have to do with the kids, should I express those to my w? Is that something that may bring us closer together? Or do I deal with it on my own since she thinks they will be okay? One of her justifications for leaving is believing they will be all right. I do know that she sees my son have some difficulties with this.