Lost and confused

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks AJ and Labug.
I received DR today so I think I'll start on that. Actually after I recieved it i mowed the lawn and did other stuff. If this was a week ago I would have been living for that book. I'll start it tomorrow after work. I'll check out the 5LL after that.

Well the family history is the men are alcoholics and the wives leave while the children are young. H's Dad was a bout 5 when his Mum left him with his dad.
H was about 7 or 8 when his Mum left him with his Dad. I just don't think that it is a coincidence that H left when our son is around the same age as H was, when his mum left him.
I think he was scared of history repeating itself but ultimately that is what he had done. He just changed the dynamics from the woman leaving to the man.

I actually did mention this to H on the phone a few days ago. He didn't answer but he didn't get angry either. I kinda said what I had to say, heard the silence and quickly changed the subject to diffuse any possible conflict. Hoping that it might actually hit home.
Maybe he would be ready to read a letter, to be completely honest, I think it's more fear on my part.
I did start R talks a few weeks back and H backed right off. The strange thing is, I only started those talks after he had been starting them.

I don't know it's after 1Am here, I think I need sleep lol
Hope that post even makes sense.