I have found a lot of comfort and encouragement from reading this message board and the DB book.
it's sad that it took me this long to appreciate what was happening around me.
this whole experience has been a real eye opener and I am working hard and praying that I am not too late!
we really are communicating much better than we have done in a long time. it feels like the connection to each others lives is coming back, but it's very hard to dampen my expectations at this point. I know it won't happen this way, but it's like I am so desperate for us to hug and tell each other that it will all be ok. I understand that it will take a long time for her to believe the 'better and improved" me is here to stay and not some temporary act.
with hard work and a little luck, I'm hoping I can beat the odds.
