Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

My H has lost some weight recently, as I think I have mentioned. Now he's at the point where it really is starting to show, and I told him he looked good. He said that he was hoping he'd stop snoring if he lost some weight. It's not like he was fat but he had a decent gut on him.

I'm glad he's losing the weight now but I feel a little bad/resentful that in all of our years together, he could never get it together enough to do anything about it. His snoring drove me crazy. It was like being tortured every night. He wouldn't really address it though. I guess he figured he couldn't continue that behavior with someone new. I guess I'm partly responsible, because he's not eating lunch out at all really anymore, and he's eating what I cook for dinner. At least the brie and salami diet is over!

I need to work on trying to trust his changes. I'm still so paranoid that he's going to go through with the D, even though things seem to be going well (better than they were before bomb). I'm not going to do anything differently, but I guess I won't really be able to believe it until he's able to return some of my affection.

Today we had a parent meeting at the school. He brought the boys early and when I got there I was a little upset that he hadn't saved me a seat. We had the opportunity to move at one point so I sat next to him and he kept inching his chair away from me. But before he left, he said he had to go, and at least told me that. I didn't walk out with him, but at least he had the decency to say goodbye. Tomorrow, same drill. We are not going in one car because I'm going to work afterwards.