Lost and confused

[Soul.Searching]

I'm so confused. H just called and was asking me about the car and how it's running. Then he asked if the kids can have Friday off school because he might have Friday off and he won't see them for three weeks after that. I said I didn't really like it but as long as its a one off, it's up to him. He will have to work something else out next time. My S can't really "afford" to be having days off.

He asked if I am working Friday and I said yes, then he went to ask something but stopped. Then he asked,.... If he can drive me to work Friday and take the kids to the beach and then pick me up because it will be a more comfortable drive than his van. I went silent and didn't know what to say,... My reply end up being "well that's a bit strange." he asked why and I said " well were not together anymore" he said "yeah that's why I wasent going to ask"

He then said if I wasent working he was going to see if I would go with them to the beach.

There's another weird thing. The car is one we brought a couple of months back. In between when he left the first time for a few days and when he left again. The car was brought out of my tax money but H told everybody how he brought it for me. I just let it slide but this morning he said " You got my car back"
Okay so he did kinda pick the car based on what I wanted, he did come and look at it with me and even got the papers in his name.
It's almost like he actually thinks he brought it for me!!!

I feel bad saying he can't take it but at the same time, he thrashes it and I think even asking is stepping over a boundary. I just don't know if it is just because emotions are high right now. That's the hard part. Figuring out if emotions are playing a part in what I'm thinking/ feeling. Like excess emotions anyway.

Sorry for all the constant long posts. It helps me to go back and look at things. For the first time in my life, I find I have been forgetting things people say/ do.
It's like pregnancy/ new mother brain with a vengeance.