5 months in

[Tessa2012]

Thanks AS.

I'll have to get the book and read it. We thanked each other for doing things but we never really talked about how we appreciated each other. I look forward to doing some additional reading.

He said that I worried him and he asked what was going on. I told him that nothing was going on and that I had been thinking about what I'm thankful for.

Don't tell him "nothing", tell him that this whole experience has awakened you and that you're transforming yourself into a better person. To quote one of the DB 180 tips:

"You need to make your partner think that you have had an awakening and, as far as you are concerned, you are going to move on with your life, with or without your spouse."

So you want him to know that you ARE changing, but that it's not for his benefit, it's for yours.

H was worried because he thought that my comment about appreciating him meant that I was considering suicide. So I told him "nothing was going on" because I wasn't suicidal.

H actually sent me a text with a screenshot of a song that he was listening to. He told me to find the song and listen to it. He used to suggest songs to me all the time but he hadn't for a long time. Plus, the songs are usually along the lines of metal, hard rock and other stuff with good bass lines, drum beats and guitar riffs.

The song is slow paced and romantic. It's called "World in Flames" by In This Moment. It caught me off guard because the lyrics talk about someone calling out to their love asking to be found and saved, that they're alone and want "you" to come home.

What's throwing me off is that I don't know if he's just sharing a really beautiful song, messing with me or sending me a message. I'm trying not to read into it but the song is so full of meaning.

The only response that I have him was that it was a beautiful song.