I fuc!ked up on all those things and that has a lot to do with why I am here.
Geez that is valuable insight IF you are doing something about it.
What would be different now, and from this day forward if you were to reconcile?
What are you working on to change that equation?
Financial- As I was growing up I was never given any financial management skills, unfortunately it’s been a really steep learning curve. I am finally paying all my bills on time and I am doing it myself, something I haven’t done for years. I am not taking on additional debt and I’ve met with a financial advisor several times. I am learning to budget and I am much more cautious with my spending. I’ve finally become very cost conscious. I have a lot more respect for my money and I’ve come to understand that I don’t need to buy things for instant gratification. I’ve got myself on a couple of payment plans with creditors. I’ve become more responsible and I don’t brush these things under the rug anymore.
Confidence-This is a hard one for me, it was something I never really thought about. I am definitely a work in progress. Just being mindful of this shortcoming is a baby step towards improvement.
Sleep- I've had problems sleeping FOR YEARS and I've recently addressed it. I've been waking up about 10 times a night and I knew it needed to be addressed, which I did. I finally had a sleep study. The doctor diagnosed me with sleep apnea which surprised me because I thought it only affected overweight people. I am now learning that’s not true. They could somehow tell that I would start snoring and then the muscle in my throat would close which caused me to wake up. It’s now being treated so my sleep schedule is a lot more under control.
Conflict avoidance- I used to really struggle with this. I would over-think everything before I responded to people. I would almost do anything not to fight or stir the pot, that was my mantra. I am now doing a much better job voicing my opinion with others, being more assertive. I am not spending every waking moment seeking the approval of others. I am being a lot more honest with myself and others. I've worked really hard to get rid of my unhealthy, passive aggressive behavior.
