snodderly~ I'm sure the tattoo isn't far behind, after all he's always wanted one. Today I'm just feeling like he should have lived his teens when he WAS a teen, and I know he did, I mean went out and had fun, nothing like crazy or anything, but it's not like he lived a sheltered life either. I'm just having one of those upset moments where I think about if he ever does finally realize how much he's screwed everything up and decides to come back what the true cost is..... I mean is all of this really worth it? I guess he will have to answer that for himself. Sorry, today is just one of those days the emotional pain is taking it's toll.... I'm just exhausted, tired of doing everything and being merry ray of sunshine all the time for everyone, just feeling lonely right this moment I suppose. This too shall pass.
Yes he has been sitting in the same room and having normal conversations with me. Great I passed a test I didn't know I was taking. I'm tired of jumping through hoops, I know he's a depressed mess (even though he swears he's great) but this selfishness just takes it's toll.... I'm not stupid, I know he's doing things he shouldn't be doing as a married man (I don't care how much in your head you try to make yourself believe you're not married, you still are), I mean I can sit here and wish any number of things but that doesn't make them so.
As far as friends, family and co-workers, they are all pretty freaking dense, it's been over a year and really not one of them realize he's in a crisis?
I didn't see the episode of Once on Sunday I'm catching up on season one on Netflix and hoping season 2 will be on hulu.
