If only H would realize that I am capable of being the girl that he used to love..... I still can't help blaming myself for changing into a not so great person, and treating him badly. I start to remember that he has many flaws, and I remember that I didn't mind at first, but later, I became so self-centered and thought he needed to be perfect..... But looking back, I wasn't getting perfect then how could I have asked him to be..... I forgot how we were so in love, and promised to communicate and solve our problems, and I adore his silliness and he liked mine. How did everything all change.... I mean, I know it's been a long time...
I felt like if he didn't meet this OW...maybe, maybe... but again, then I wouldn't have realized how horrible things turned out.... and then, the OW will definitely show up later in life... Sigh....
