Going home

[needgrace]

ok... i was running this morning

and tough thoughts came up about W and OW...

so i waved my white flag but felt like i needed to do more.

i was reminded last night of a therapy session in which the C had me create an image of what i was feeling.. i have told this here before but this is a refresher course

i felt like i was in a body of water.. like a swimming hole, but there was a tough current and i was struggling to keep my head above the water..

the C had me stop struggling..

i was scared but i trusted her so i did.

and i began to FLOAT.. and the anxiety i had been experiencing at the time significantly decreased in the following days..

so TODAY, i decided to not just surrender but to audaciously just JUMP right in..

so i let my mind go to some fears i have been resisting..

that this D is moving forward and that W may never give us another chance..

and you know what... I was okay... I am okay.. I will be okay..

and so will all of you dear people here. ((((((((((((((( )))))))))))))))