It warmed my heart just reading about your day with your D8 and how much she was trying to cheer you up. Do you see the little angel in her? Her strength, her caring, her love for you? Please keep that in mind when you get to a low, dark place and open your heart and mind to those experiences right now.
Our children have that gift to move us in ways that nobody else can. Use that as a fuel to keep moving and staying strong. I know it's hard to see the point and it's hard to see ourselves out of it sometimes. Believe me - I have been there, with horrible thoughts, which made me even doubt even if my kids needed me...
Your daughter has shown you how the little everyday things in life can get you through the day and just how much she needs you. Build on those until you start feeling better. And fake it until you make it in front of her if you need to, like today. Smile and go with the flow. You will see that you will feed off each other and soon enough you will feel better around her.
Please, please think about your little angel. You are her rock and she is counting on you. You cannot let her down...
We are all here for you and glad that you are going to see the dr. today and get some help.
It will get better.
(((((Arsene)))
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
