While I know that I could have possible went against certain DB principles, ultimately I am happy with my decision to tell my wife that I would not be seeking the divorce because it is in fact not what I want. However, I do feel a hint of question that it could be playing into her "cake eating". I know that I am lucky to still be in the same house, but I can't help but feel like I am being used as nothing more than a "Sugar Daddy" without any physical benefits!
Overall, the past couple of days have been the norm. Wife and I are getting along and talking (No R talk). Yesterday, I left work and passed my W and D4 on the road inside our neighborhood. I pulled into my driveway, fully expecting W to turn around and drop D4 off at home since I was now home. I waited for a minute, but since the weather was beautiful, I changed clothes and got on the motorcycle and went for a ride. While I was out, I went to the mall to go to the bookstore (of course looking for any new relationship books). I pulled into the parking lot and to my suprise, I see my W and D4 pulling out of a spot for a store right next to the bookstore. W pulled over to where I was at and we greeted each other. She jokingly said "guess that GPS unit works", refering to my snoping in the past and how sometimes she thought that I may have put a GPS tracker on her car. I laughed and jokingly said "yes, it works well". We talked for about 5 minutes or so, each sharing our day. She started showing me some things that she got for D4's hair and other stuff. They had Chocolate Covered pretzels and i was laughing about D4 having chocolate all over her face. W offered me the remainder and I declined but thanked her. She asked what I was doing and I told her I was looking for a book for my college classes. We said our goodbyes and I went into the store and she left.
When I got home, I was a little frustrated because there was absolutely no plan for dinner. She had been home all day but did not take anything out of the freezer or make an alternate plan. I kept my frustratoin to myself and figured out what to make. We had dinner as a family again last night, and we had a pretty good family conversation. After dinner, she went to the bedroom to, i guess, study. I stayed downstairs and cleaned the kitchen, then started watching the Presidential Debate. I texted her that the Debate was on if she wanted to watch. (We watched most of the last one together) She said that "If you do my homework, I will watch the debate", then "guess not . I told her I recorded it if she wanted to watch it later and she said Thanks. That was the end of the conversation last night.
Just journaling thoughts today. Nothing new to really ask or bring up.
. I told her I recorded it if she wanted to watch it later and she said Thanks. That was the end of the conversation last night.