Thanks everyone for your kind words of advice but mostly, for your presence.

I've been going through something I don't understand right now. I get over-flooded by emotions I though I'd dealt with. Stuff I thought I'd accepted, and now I can't seem to be able to take it, or let go of it.

I canceled my work today, had D8 taken to school, and I've been locked in my room all morning crying like a frickin' baby. It doesn't make sense, I know but I can't seem to be able to stop it. I'm off the Xanax as I suspect it might be the cause of this. I don't know. It's just more than I can handle now.

Sorry, I assure you this is not me feeling sorry for myself. I don't know what it is. I'll report back later.

Thanks for listening,

Freshman Class of 2012

M-49
W-42
1D-10
T 10 YEARS
M 9 YEARS
EA/MLC 07/2010
Separation 28/05/2012
PA confirmed 31/07/12
W Asked for D 31/07/12
D on and off the table since then