Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

Thanks guys. The one thing I have to say here is that I also have to learn to trust my H's changes, as much as he'll need to trust mine. At times it seems like he's going out of his way to be nice and considerate towards me, which, on its face, is really nice. But since I know he's seen a L, I just wonder sometimes if it's all a ploy to soften me up.

Well, ploy or not, we're getting along better, and I guess that's all that matters. I'm hoping we've both finally released the YEARS of built up anger that we had stacked up. Tonight we watched the third debate, and even laughed together at some dumb commercial for a home builder saying that a new home was much better than someone else's "used home."

I emailed him about his birthday. The kids don't have school so he's taking the day off. No response yet about dinner. I put it to him that I thought we'd have a family dinner, but of course he could have the option of going out alone for something nicer if he wanted to. I told him I wanted him to feel like it was a special day for him but didn't want to make him uncomfortable. I may not even participate in the day's activities - just help the boys make him breakfast in bed and then dinner.

I went to the public library today with S6. I don't know why I don't go there more often. I guess I have more time now that I am not working full time, but I love the library. I just love the whole concept of being able to borrow pretty much any book you could want for free, and I never take advantage of it. I got 3 audiobooks for my commute: one on eliminating debt, one on happiness and one on the science of attraction. I don't know, the whole thing felt empowering and very DB!