Hi Sweetbriar, God I identified so much with your sitch because I was 8mos preg when I found out about the affair. I think back at my delivery and the days that followed and I just get depressed all over again.
I commend you on NC! This is something I am still struggling with and it's been over a year! I wish I had done it a lot sooner however I flip flopped a lot!
Stay focused on your journey. Stick to your boundaries. They are there to help you. I pray to God, help me take care of myself so I may take care of my children. It helped.
I wish you all the best. Take very good care of yourself. We are all here to help.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017