Can't sleep. I have no idea why but everything from the past 9 months is running through my head. Horrible, horrible moments. I keep seeing these images of me screaming at him after I found the two of them together. Seeing his truck parked at her apt with D10 in the car with me. Was she at our house when we went out of town? Did she go through my things and walk around our home? I see me telling him horrible things about how he looked and how stupid he was... Then, I think of the two of them together, right now.
Tired of fighting the thoughts, so I'm up for now. I've been sleeping so much better to. Not sure why tonight. Maybe stress about money and feeling so distant from him and the girls really missing him as Halloween and the holidays approach.
What if he hurts himself, what if he drives his truck into a tree while he's drunk, what if he marries her? What if...
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"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
