Hi Snookee. I'm barely catching up on your thread. I totally empathize with you. Over a year later and my H is still with OW. Many people would tell me that he would drop her after a few mos. Well he hasn't. Their R isn't what it was in the beginning but it's still going on.
My advice to you is to do what's best for snookee. Spoil yourself. You need to feel loved and the only one who can do that now is YOU! It took me over a year to realize HOW I needed to detach and as I'm doing it I feel so much better.
I hope the best for you. Keep posting. Don't let too much time go by to post. Many of us here will be by your side on this journey.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017