Irish, You and I were together and married to our spouses about the same amount of time. I can appreciate where you are because that is where you are right now. The only advise I can offer is to view it as a new journey and see where it takes you. I too have some melancholy moments. You are a human being and what is coming out of you is human feelings and emotions. Hang in there and keep moving forward at your own pace. also understand that the people here get it. I get it.