"I think I'm getting confused by all of the advice I've been getting from my friends"

Friends are great. But they have nothing invested in your M. They don't understand as much as we have because they've never been through this.

"and I really need to concentrate on my core feelings."

IMHO, this is wrong. It's what's gotten you in trouble in the first place. Follow the DB rules and give your W space.


M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER