Thanks man, your support is appreciated. I have left the pride, any pride being latino or not out time ago. If I would had any kind of pride, I would "LET GO AND LET GOD" but I didn't. I begged, I pressured, I accepted her terms and many other bad things. It became an obssesion, an addiction to be with her no matter what. Pride, selfsteem, self control, love for my self, they all went out the door when XW left me.
The only place I have found true refuge is in the Lord. I still feel the pain for the lost person. I guess that is normal, but I do not want to feed that pain and become suffering. I have found peace, and strenght for everyday in the Lord. I can not say I am 100% percent where I want and should be with my relationship with my God, but it is a work in progress.
One thing, I will let God take care of me and the rest will fall in place at his time, not mine. I tried with my own efforts and they all failed, now I will work under His terms and allow my self to be transformed. It is as many said "Help your self, and God will help you". My time to put my share to fix my self.
