So this morning he woke up, came inside and started making breakfast without saying a word, as usual for the past week. I asked him if he was just going to stop speaking to me altogether. He said something like "I don't know what you want me to say". So I asked again and he came and sat on the couch. He said he's still going to leave, maybe next month because he has to find a place for him and the 2 dogs. He asked me what I was planning to do and if I was leaving he'd stay till Nov. I told him that right now I'm not going anywhere, this is his choice. I don't agree with it, because I believe that marriage is worth fighting for. However, I said that I supported his decision, and I can't make him stay if he's made up his mind. I told him I don't know what I'm going to do yet, maybe I'll have someone move in with me (it's only a 1 br so don't know how that would work). If I can't find someone to move in, I'll have to have that conversation with our landlord when the time comes. For now I'm not uprooting myself until I've thought this through.
Part of me is astounded that he'd really leave when there's so much love between us (wouldn't know it right now). The other part of me is numb and kind of like "if you're going to go, then go already and let me get on with my life!" I'm very sad, but if someone would give up on me that easily, then I don't know what to say. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing.
