best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

Thanks Lisa although sometimes it doesn't feel that way.

It is amazing with the 180's, without having much to go on from my wife I am kind of on my own. So I have just been trying to be more supportive, thankful, and trying to speak WOA. At first it did feel like I was just doing it for her. Now I find myself saying to people at work, "that is a great idea". And it feels great.

A little more about last night...I did have to call her about a half a dozen times for info, I tried to keep it light and even get a little humor into the conversation.

I did miss chance when she told me that this isn't something she just woke up one morning and thought of doing. Probably should have said that I can't imagine how hard it must have been for the last few years. Oh well, I don't think I did anything to cause more damage.

I also made my first appointment with a IC today. I think I need to be at place where I am ready to move on without her before we can have the r we both want. He is familiar with MWD and DB.