Hey Lisa. So sorry you are having such heartache. You are definitely not alone, I absolutely identify with the pain in your posts.
I try to set some goals for myself. Even little things like showering, doing my hair and make up each day make me feel better about myself. I have also started walking 30 - 60 minutes a day (some days this isn't possible, but I do what I can).
Try too, to shift your focus from getting your H back. Not to say that you shouldn't want that, or that you shouldn't aim for that, but let that end by a by-product of your own personal goals. Work on what you CAN control (yourself) and let go of what you CANNOT control (your H).
"Keeping it business like" might have to be okay for now. It will help you detach.
Don't give up! Its got to get better
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
