best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

It went pretty well. I am slowing finding peace on this path. It is what she wants, and I won't stand in her way. She said she didn't want maintenance, and will alternate 3 nights and then 4 nights with the kids, everyother week.

I told her I wish I could turn back the clock and support her in what she wanted to do. She asked why I never did that. It was the first time she actually questioned and pointed some actions of mine that contributed to our demise. She also took some of the blame in saying that she should have spoken out. I told her that I have no excuse for not doing the things I should have been doing.

If not for her leaving I probably would have never recognized my shortcomings.

I did mention Retrouvaille again. Told her they have them every couple of months and if down the road she would like to go to let me know. She said I love you, you're so persistent and dedicated.

I don't remember how this came up but she said even if it did work she couldn't go back to our house. I actually just talked to a friend the other day and told him I wasn't sure if I would stay there. I can afford, I think I would like something smaller. Too much house for a half time dad. I told her just that and left it there.

That is pretty much the just of it. Not really sure where to go from here. I have some retirement account numbers to get today and then I will leave it in her hands. I will continue to work on myself and let her work out her issues.