Regarding you going out and leaving her alone, you were an @$$ plain and simple.
"I just can't stop."
Which is why you're going to D.
"I talked to her again tonight and she got real mad."
I would too.
"I asked her how long she thought this would go on and she went nuts."
YOu keep talking as if this is something that she's just going to "snap out of". She's not going to. In fact, after reading your posts, it's totally understandable why she's leaving you. In fact, she details it quite specifically and you just don't get it. You hear but you don't LISTEN.
Like the other night when you up and left. You thought you were being clever by leaving, but she saw you as an @$$ for just up and leaving her and the kids alone with the puppy. It's no wonder she feels abandoned by you.
In fact, you made some comment about how she's "looking for young men" while you were driving. That's just your hurt feelings talking. It's immature and childish.
"She seems irrational to me, do you think she might be having a mlc?"
No she's doing what she's doing because you act like an @$$ and continue to do so. This is not a decision that she suddenly came up with. She did so after careful consideration.
Did you really read DR? If you did, then you know it's all about consistent change. YOu have to change your behavior and keep it constant in order for her to even remotely think about going back to you.
All I see here is you constantly blaming her for things without taking any responsibility. You will argue that you have, but if you did, you would stop acting badly and start acting the way you should be.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.