Riding the Bull

[25yearsmlc]

if you are taking anti-anxiety meds, I can see why you'd take them "as needed". But if you are taking anti-depressants, that's a daily thing you take, that builds up over time.

Yeah, you are right, I'm on anti-anxiety meds (Xanax) but I'll talk again to my doctor cause it doesn't seem to work for too long.
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Likewise, the weight loss is welcomed right now but I hope I've lost all I ha to lose. Any more and it'll be too much. I started off at 75KG an I'm now at 63 KG. That's more than 25 lbs.

And as a parent, our children need us MORE at these times, not less.

Know what I mean? To my kids I must have seemed preoccupied when H was leaving or gone or not sure what he was doing...I wasn't fully present for my kids,

Yes I know and I live it too. Just the basic stress of trying to start over in this place is enough to preoccupy me but add to that the present sitch and I know D8 is not always getting the best of me she should.

and the anti anxiety meds helped to keep me in check, so I could be with my kids and focus on them. Make sense?

Yes, I understand and that is why I asked my doctor for this but I'm not much of a med taker and it worries me that I have to be down to this.

Thanks 25.

I get your reluctance to take these meds. But if they're not for this, what are they for? (Deaths I guess).

Yes xanax is a fast but short acting anti=anxiety medication (of the family of meds known as the benzodiazepine family).It's a shorter acting cousin of valium.

Anti depressants are more varied but then again so is depression. But most folks around here get serontonin related meds, and most folks say they help.

I found that they helped me a lot when I was in grief.

Later on, the side effect of a lower libido began to matter but for obvious reasons was not noticeable for some time. (And some anti-depressants do not have that effect, btw)

To sum up, I needed both anti anxiety meds and anti-depressants for awhile.

At first it bothered my ego./ But then I said, "so what?" So I let my ego take a small hit and boy, it was worth it.

I think my ego would have been hit a lot harder if I'd "lost it" in front of the kids or been pathetic around my h. (And I'd already had enough of that.)

Taking the meds helped me avoid that. And to compartmentalize and yes, to detach, even if only for a few hours at a time.

Many around here do/did take both. Arsene, this is not permanent.

And it did help me avoid making things worse. Maybe I would not have taken them if I didn't have children, but I do, and they needed me and I wasn't able to be there for them the way I wanted to, without some more help.

IN today's world, there are a ton of resources if we know where to look. Why not avail yourself of them?

Good luck buddy! It does get better. (We're not lying.)

Any more GAL things?