Hmm.. I think Sunny, that there could be more to it than "it's my fault" don't you?
Either way, if you apologized and meant it, then there is no reason to say it again. If she chooses to keep that in the forefront, then so be it. That doesn't give you license to unforgive yourself and keep suffering.
I'm at a loss a bit. I had the opposite problem. There was very little for her to blame me for(she made up much she no longer remembers now) I honestly felt like I had not lived in my own life when the dust settled! That was harder for me than if I had caused the issues.
In the end, she left. The marriage ended because she quit trying to make things work. My ex did same. Is what it is and it's time for you to forgive yourself for your issues. Work on them and put them behind you.
Make sense? AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
