I am so sorry you are going through this. Don't really know what to say other than I too am struggling with the idea of a d. My coach pointed out that it is actually a 180 for me to fill out the paperwork since my w knows I don't want to. Not saying that that is what you should do. I am saying that we do have to let them work this out on their own, make their own mistakes. That is how we learn.
Good luck
Me 37/W 32 S 5 D 4 ILYBNILWY 5/12 Sep 8/12 Starting to find myself 11/12 on