best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

Allright GKM here goes...

I am angry at my w for leaving, for breaking up our family, for putting our children through this.

I am angry at her parents for not telling her they will support her, instead of telling her to do what it takes to keep your family together.

I am angry at my own mom for telling her to just let me go, rather than saying fight for your family. Better yet I wish she wouldn't have said anything at all.

And most of all I am angry at myself for not figureing out what she needed. I am angry that I couldn't keep my family together.

With all that I am angry about I can understand why each person has done what they have done. As far as I go, I know I need to let go of that anger, use that energy and turn this thing around. At least use that energy to find the patience I need to let her work out what she needs to.

I was so worried at the beginning of this that I would miss any signs that she was ready to start coming closer, now I see that she is not even close to ready, amd neither am I.