Not sure where I belong...STBX has regrets.

[Soul.Searching]

Thank you !! I feel better now.

I'm just afraid to make any mistakes right now that might scare him off.

Although half the time I don't even know if I have lost my mind in wanting him back. I guess that's just another reason to take this slow.

I know the feeling. I wish I had some advise.

Wow. So I sent STBX the message saying I wasn't ready to take it to that level and he replied. "It wouldnt be just sex i would be making love to you,Sometimes you just have to say WTF" not sure what that meant. Anyways I replied. "I wasn't ready for sex I needed to protect myself first, besides you are still living with OW"

Well I didn't hear from him again yesterday. He was supposed to come to the house and work on the house. The girls were both wondering where he was. I told them they needed to text him and ask. He replied his back was hurting and said sorry I won't be over today.

Now I am saying WTF. I guess he didn't get what he wanted and went back in to his tunnel.

Not sure what to think. Unless he says he went back to break it off with OW, he is really showing his true self. He is saying all the right things. But his actions aren't stepping up to his words.

My H wanted the same thing and when I declined, he just pulled further away. I just don't understand men sometimes.