You can't see enough to apologize for your own shortcomings until you do that because you can't see them at this point. That takes time. It really does. And when you do, it hurts. It's tempting to blame the other and run away. But we have the advantage of not being nuts/schizo. We have the ability to see more clearly and the more we detach, the more we can see things clearly. Then, and only then are we really ready to embrace what happened. What led up to it. We are ready to face our own demons. It never happens fast enough for us though, does it?
Thanks for so such stuff for me to think about - thing is I realize my part in all of it - it kills me and rips me apart trying to forgivr myself is hard - I had this beautiful wonderful girl who loved me so much and now she can't even look at me because I was not the best I could be -- I thought she would always be there no matter what - and I was wrong -- but she knows this and she uses my guilt against me and it stinks. I have apologized so many times it doesn't make a difference she doesn't care and says it is to late.
afain thanks for all your words AJ
I tank God I found this place
Sunny
If someone decides there is no goodness in you they won't be able to see it. I'll take a BLT over a MLC anyday !!!
