Thanks Tori I seem to think that H is not curious and doesn't notice things but I do, you do, we all do so he would too.
My main issue w going dimmer is how he will interpret it. I want him to understand that I'd rather talk/see him but men don't really do subtle hinting (huge generalisation there, sorry chaps) that's why I want to say "don't really feel like texting, you can call me if you want"
I'm also fearful that it will cause him to think I am not interested - as that used to be my first thought but now I can think other things - he's busy etc.
I guess I just need to experiment...
Yes, H needs to realise I won't be here forever because I won't be. If this doesn't change then I will be done I kept the home fire burning, stood like a lighthouse, kept the door ajar since he left 2 years ago. I did that because I could see he was running from him Self He even realised that in Feb'12 that wherever he went, there he was and that the issues were in him.
Thing is I don't think I can do this much longer. There is no benefit in it to me. What I know is that I'm doing good, I have a life without H that I really love. Sure, I miss his company and it would be great if we reconcile but I know I will be fine if we don't.
O and there's the other confusion in my mind: on the one hand this is MLC and on the other hand a man has left his wife and she may be done before he leaves the tunnel
