I think I see the picnic!

[2chiquitos]

RegretfulLA - I couldn't do it either. Unbidden is right. It's disabled. I was on the alt for a day and freaked out cuz I saw Hs pix so it'll be a few more days until I recover.

I am seriously regressing today! It's awful.I told H about the pix and how it was a trigger. He said he never checks his fb and he will change the pix.

I stopped him and said, "it's not that. It's that you can't say what I want to hear and that's why I should've never brought it up to you."

This is when it got worse. I said, "I need you out of my life. I don't want you coming over in the mornings or evenings anymore. You can come after work and take the kids for a few hours M-F and Sat,Sun 12-5p."

This didn't feel right. I did feel confident in my decision when I told him before not to come because I didn't do it from a place of anger/hurt. This just came out like mush.

I apologized. Not because this is not the arrangement I want but because this isn't how I want to ask for it. There will come a time when I will change it but not like this.

He agreed we should talk about R and affair on Tues over dinner at a restaurant. (don't really know why not at home but I just went with it) I told him I don't want the kids with us since they interrupt us a lot. He agreed. I asked him if we should talk during an MC session and he said no. I didn't push it. I notice he is much more distant with me at MC sessions.

Weird but I didn't think our first dinner alone would be arranged like this.