I went out to occupy myself for awhile. She ended up going to stay with family so she can think. I ended up texting her that honestly I feel used and taken advantage of. She said that's not it, she's stressed and depressed, and needs time alone to think. We went back and forth a little. Last thing I sent was a heartfelt text supporting her and acknowledging the depression.

I'm stuck right now. That last text was a verbal 180 from what I wanted to say. I wanted to tell her to F off and that she'd be getting a new 30 notice.

I did the verbal 180 though and I'm attempting to look at the whole DB concept of her being hurt and confused. I don't understand how "Act As If" backfired so badly. I'm thinking about the "don't believe anything they say and only half of what they do" but I'm lost there as well. I told her that actions speak louder than words, that she's used that with me and I said tonight is to me like how the check incident was to her.

I mean, giving benefit of the doubt that's she's really not just out to use me, what do I do? How do I keep up helpful caring 180's and detach LRT style?

Sorry, I know I'm ranting. I'm angry.

“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.” Abraham Lincoln