Today I got a "prize" from a grocery store, I picked a snack and I felt really happy. I am still not detached from H apparently, cuz when I picked my little prize, I was thinking about him, how he would be there and be happy with me.....How I miss that.....
He's looking for a job right now, I know he's under a lot of pressure, but only knowing it doesn't really make me understand it properly.... I mean, I still feel bad. He contacts everyone, seems to me.... but me. To be honest, I don't know how to take anything he says to me right now so, maybe it's a good thing.... But meanwhile, I really wanna call him....Don't worry, I won't call, I know that even if I call, he wouldn't pick it up. Sigh....
