Not coping today, feel like I am going crazy and so very very lonely. H popped round to pick up post last night, first time seen him in 3 weeks. Conversation was light and chatty and some friendly 'touches' . The plan was that he would keep the house and move back into it and I would move out. Now he says it is to hard for him to live unit so he will rent it out and stay renting? I cried I know I know I shouldn't have, I asked him please come home.
He says he's not seeing anyone else, but who knows. It seems so crazy. Is there really any hope. I know it is early days but I can't sleep, I feel like I am barely functioning or just on autopilot and emotional shut down cause it hurts way too much.
