You still may be his safe place to return to, my H calls it a connection as says it's a good thing.
i was reading this - and your comments- and the phone rang and it was h. I picked it up thinking maybe you're rite and i should maintain the connection. we had a very pleasant conversation. then when i got off- i realized probably he calle din a.m. to "get me out of the way" because his evening was (perhaps) going to see ow. then of course, me in less than cheery mode. not misery- so that's something huge- i didn't stress or let it ruin my day. BUT- it did intrude into my thoughts and take the fun out of the nice conversation.
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I know, it's very unsettling because he's not enough for me (as is) but I can't shake him either. I know this will either end by me or I feel it may linger foreverrrrr. He's committed but with half a foot out the door crazy
oh man - ditto for me. i am beginning to think i will end up HAVING to be the big ogre too when i finally cut him or myself loose out of sheer self-preservation and need for human interaction with someone that actually wants to be there with me. I'm mighty sick and tired of feeling like i'm some giant burden to be around. i mean- really..... i have friends who are more than happy to interact with me. if he's soooooo lumbered with me- what the heck is stopping him from walking? it's sick isn't it? do you think it's a power thing- they just keep us because they can and it makes them feel all in command and powerful to jack around some poor sap they think looooooveeesss them sooooooo much?
i swear - i don't know most of the time and don't care to fgure anymore the rest of the time. i'm marking time here-
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But, ultimately no he doesn't "want" me out of his life, but he won't do anything to prevent it.
i know- me too. wht the heck is it with these guys that they cannot make the decision- one way or the other and stick to it dammit. much like their original commitment to us- just decide it and do it- that is that. nothing fancy- just do it...
