Arsene, I hope you can find comfort in the fact that all of us whose S's have had (or have) A's have gone through the same range or emotions. Do you remember when I said that the current sitch was working out for you at the moment? Reassess if it's still working out for you. If you have the same feeling for at least a week, then it's a true feeling (coming from your inner being) so then it's time to make changes to your goals/behavior. I felt like I could not be married to my H for about 6 mo after his A was over. I think it's bc he hadn't even said he was sorry, and was providing no comfort or transparency. I was a mess. Looking back, I should've listened to my inner voice. I guess whatever happened after still had a value, bc I grew a lot as a person. Remember, when you make a decision, the outcome might not necessarily be better or wose. It's just DIFFERENT. Hang in there...