I slept fairly well, as I was proud of myself for how I responded differently, rather than react. No word about IC from W. Maybe my session today will promote her, maybe not. This am she was fair before leaving. I put on a cheerful face. She did call me with a question regarding health insurance re-enrollment. She carries it for us, but I have done all the paperwork. I answered a simple question and did ask if she was going to make changes (drop me), and she said she was leaving it as is. Good thing I think. Then she did chate up for a few minutes, pleasantly and friendly.
.......... Help I had an IC appt today. He very appropriately hit me with a 2 x 4. W is treating me like sh*t, stop taking care of her, be Pro-Andrew, stop putting everyone, especially her before myself. I'm doing well on the superficial level of stuff. When IC told me to take care of myself, it felt wrong. I'm so used to taking care of others. I have chosen not to truly GAL, how come? I need to treat myself, but am too responsible, Joe come? Is it lack of true confidence, low self worth, or what? This is a layer I need to go deeper on. Help?
