Bklyn Still Here P2

[BklynMom]

Thks for stopping by and saying hi SIAS here and on the alt.

I have been very busy the past few weeks with work and with the girls but as per usual they light up my life. I am so blessed.

Generally I feel pretty good. Actually most days I have less anxiety and fear then I did prior to the bomb. I am able to live in the present and enjoy each moment rather then freak out if the subway is late or whatever else I can't control.

Unfortunately right now I don't have a lot of time take care of me and go to Alanon meetings, write on these boards and go to IC. But I do the best I can on the weekends he has the girls (like this weekend) and recognize that when my job is over in January I will have more time to do those things.

I also appreciate how much taking care of myself has given me. I know that it needs to be part of my life, so even if its on pause right now it is necessary to continue forever.

I just need to put it out there I do get sad that the girls won't grow up with a mommy & daddy and I know that breaks their heart. That is really hard to accept. It makes me cry. I would do anything for my girls and they deserve better.

I also get sad when I think about H not being around together for the holidays and not being a family during that time. I always practice thought stopping when I think about the holidays.

thanks for being here