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[Wendylon]

Hi TJP,

I think you're right: it does sound as if you could be heading for an eating disorder. I get that sense both from the content of what you say but also from the way you talk about it. The kind of detail you go into reminds me of an old friend of mine who was anorexic/bulimic. I hope I'm wrong. Do you think that any bit of you might hope that your H would come running home if you became obviously unwell?

Keep coming to this forum. Putting the advice here into practice will give you the very best chance of getting through this.

Take care of yourself, TJP. I hope the ADs kick in soon and help you. It's great that you're seeking medical help and that you're here. It sounds too as if you have a lovely R with your daughters. I agree that you might benefit from being more open with people who will be supportive of you. I guess it can be hard to tell who will respond to the information in a sensitive and helpful way. Maybe start with widening the circle of who is in the know slowly and cautiously.