I agree re him coming up with some super dooper ideas re how our life should be going but the speed at which he's moving is incredible! This from the man who rarely moved off the sofa of a weekend! I wonder about his brain though. How callous they are or maybe just they don't think. He's been very keen to tell me about his decision to buy a new car. One that will be ideal for his 200 mile daily commute from hers to work. And it'll be an estate so her 2 kids have plenty of room. He's been making and taking calls all day in our openplan office. I haven't reacted once. I am hoping I've learnt my lesson. Still [censored] though. The tears are just below the surface but I am using NLP techniques to get through. Plus I just walked away a few times. I don't want the details of his shiny new life.
I won't make the mistake of seeing her stuff on FB again. I blocked her but another account holder saw stuff she is making public. None of her previous status updates were public. So I know or at least I believe, that was for me. I do think it's a game for her and I realised after seeing her postings it's made me realise I have been doing everything she wants me to do. Everything I shouldn't have to push them further together. I won't make the mistake of giving her that power again. He may leave me forever but she won't get any more power in my life. I'm done with that.
My friend (who was an OW for a while, you can imagine the intense and emotional chats we've had about that can't you?!) told me that whatever he is saying or doing with her and her kids she will be eaten up with jealousy that he sees me every day at work. I'd never thought about that. It's made me realise this isn't easy on any of us, even though it looks to me like they are fine and dandy.
Bottom line, you are right, he is still very keen for me to divorce him. He still wants to be seen as the good guy, but I should imagine by the new year the love affair will be even more intense and he will probably have the courage to initate the proceedings. I will just have to wait and see.
Thanks for the advice again and sorry for long post, it feels better to get it out, it's toxic to stay inside. x
