i know- me too. i am determined not to stay down tho- i may be a slug and very very lazy about jumping into giant life changes and being all "back up and running". - "prudence" would be a perfect middle name for me.
BUT SO, shoot me. you too- no one is going to take away our birthday for not becoming "cured" faster. it's just (i guess) the way it is. grief- loss - we're still probably lot better off than most because at least if nothing else- we've found this place to share the junk & misery and if i'm sure of one thing in life (and it might only be that one thing) i think dark thoughts and feelings are ALWAYS better out than in. the whole keeping stuff like this only in your own mind - i'd say is a good ticket to crazy-ville. (well, or alcohol land or drugs central) - somewhere bad.
will be back later- have alot of comments to your last post- but am a bit buggie and edgie and need to go burn off this caffein before i can sit still and "chat". hope your morning is excelltn.
i wanted to comment one bit about the positive-ness of your c saying that your h could definitely be helped to go back to person was and should be by drugs. can't imagine how to make it happen- but seems hopeful to have someone "offic8ial" opine that he might be in there if you could extricate him. xxo
