I can't get past the pain yet. Why?

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Hi Sweet. Hope it's been an up week for you. Yes, I know very well about $$ problems and when H leaves, it leaves us with the kids and not a lot of resources. You'll do fine in time.

My DB coach session went well but it's a lot of what is in the books and its a bit more tailored because its one-on-one. I came into a few extra bucks recently so I put it into a few coaching sessions. I've read on these boards that the books are available at the library. Amazon may have used copies which is another option.

Believe it or not I had a little contact with H today which was better than the contact we've had the last 3 weeks. I've been leaving him alone and definitely have no intention of talking or emailing the OW about anything. When I told her in a fit of anger that her BF was having intimate relations with his W, that flipped everybody out. The biggest mistake I made in the 6 months that this nightmare has been! But you live and learn, right? So in the last 3 weeks I laid low and I did tell him that I would never betray him like that again, hoping that he'll be able to at least trust me again. Listen.....so HE can trust me! Sounds funny but if I want to work at our marriage I will have to accept his betrayal and apology.

And Nina, I feel for you too. A whole year living this bad dream that doesn't end. I guess we all have to keep DB'ing and work on ourselves and GAL. I hope that we all could soon look back at this time as a big bump in the road but that it'll teach us how to be better H's and W's. Hugs to you all!!!!