Wow...Arsene, maybe you're my on the other side of the world, along with our W's. wink. Saying that because of the obvious similarities in us cycling where we are with our W's, their OM's, etc.
I've been in the same bar as you emotionally.
I've had the same anger, backslide, and rebounds.
I've too mistaken niceness for progress.
At least we are trying to proactively learn about ourselves and from our mistakes (ill be borrowing some tips you've been given here).

Read what AnotherStander out on my thread in response to Validating vs Comforting.
Day in and day out we are tested. Day in and day out we have the chance to grow.

Hang in there mate. smile