On 10/10/10

[tadpole1025]

Thanks everyone. T2, I was actually thinking about going the Kindle route. It might be my best bet for now.

Eric, Mach, J3B, AJ, everyone else....not ignoring. I just haven't been on here the last few days. I will try to answer:

It comes down to a few questions that I'm not sure that you have the answer to.

What do you want ?

What are you willing to give to get it ?

Have you reached the point, where you are selling yourself for the outcome ???

And if you are.....is that acceptable to you ?

I want to be happy. Plain and simple. I am not happy (or as happy as I could be) right now. I am still working through the depression. Doctor says it seems to be getting better, but I still have a way to go. To be honest, I want my life back. Whether that happens or not is yet to be seen. No, I'm not expecting it, but it sure would be nice.

What am I willing to give to be happy? Anything that I have to I guess. What exactly do you mean by "selling yourself?"

Eric, you told me to list 10 things that make me happy or that I like. They may be cheesy, but here you go:

01 My sons
02 Gardening
03 Astronomy
04 Bowling
05 Watching football
06 Writing
07 The Ocean (Don't ask why I live in Arizona)
08 Fishing
09 The mountains
10 Rain

Told you it was cheesy.

To those who responded to my standing comment:

Thank you. I'm not sure if standing is the right word though. I have accepted the fact that she is getting married, but......I am not giving up. In my mind and heart there is always a chance until she says "I do." As of now, I'm laying low and taking things as they come. I figure I've got 8-9 months and the clock is ticking....

Tad