Felt real good yesterday, even strong. Today not so much. Emotions creeping up. I guess because I turned my phone off last night he tried calling twice and then twice this morning. Finally talked to him, didn't offer much info on eating out last night with friends. Even though he asked. Now feel terrible. Was he really trying to reach out, and showing concern? Or what? I feel like an ass. Just so confusing. And I ended the phone call before he could. We talked maybe 3 minutes. Haven't seen him in two months and I fly home Sunday. I am so nervous. As of now no plans, on what to do next....I am in this for the long haul. I am changing me. I am not waiting on h to fulfill my life. We have distanced ourselves from friends because of him. I didn't want to go out without him. No longer am I doing this. If he wants to stay home that is fine. Damn! I hate this.
Calling to contact you 4 times he may be panicing a little the worst thing you could do now is be needy or wanting for him - be friendly but detached - like " whats up " and select little short phrases like did you need something -- treat him like an aquaintence at work.
Stop worrying about him ( I know I have a hard time with this )
Find something you want to do for you and do it - work on you and detach from him
Keep reading here - Recipe For Success thread is amazing. So is Bowtechs thread
Good Luck
If someone decides there is no goodness in you they won't be able to see it. I'll take a BLT over a MLC anyday !!!
