Still together but trying to save this

[PeteWyo]

If you are going to make the decision to stand for your M, do it for you. I don't believe that you will be sorry that you did it even if you don't save your M.

I don't think that I would be sorry for it either way either. I guess the thing that I struggle with is that this is potentially setting me up for more hurt down the line. I am willing to do that though for the peace of mind that I did try everything.

I remember asking myself if I had wasted all of that time working towards something that looked to be a failure. My answer was that I had not wasted that time. I took stock of everything that I had learned. I knew that I could look myself in the mirror and say that I had done everything that I could to save my M. I looked at the pain that I had endured, everything that had happened in those 16 months... and I was still standing. It had not destroyed me.

It had made me stronger.

That is good to hear, I'm glad that you were able to bring something positive out of this ordeal aside from getting your W back.

I'd be lying though if I told you that the tie with my SS did not eventually help me maintain a connection with my W.

I struggle here too. I can feel my W trying to distance herself from me and I have no real reason to interact with her other than cryptically answering her text messages every other day.

Update on the texts BTW, I responded to her about my parents by saying, "They are doing great, thanks!".

She responded back, "Good to hear, I know they probably hate me but I do hope they're doing good, they're great people. How are you doing?"

... fake it until you make it, right?