Moderation means your posts won't post instantly, they will be viewed by a moderator then posted. So don't get frustrated if you don't see your posts. Keep posting and read as much as you can on here. It will open your eyes!
I'm sorry to hear you are having trouble. Read the Divorce Remedy book as soon as you can. For sure read the chapter that is online here under Mid-Life Crisis.
The main thing to learn is to seriously not beg and plead. And Sandi2's 37 rules. Which you commented on, so you read them. Print out a copy and put it close at hand. Read it everytime you wonder if what you are saying or doing is what is best.
Hang in there and take care of yourself.
Aloha,
Wendy
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!